I always wonder why relations are so weird. There was a time when I used to feel that I’ve been good at maintaining them and have felt proud for the art. But now, since the time I started working, I feel I’m so lonely and disabled with most of my relations screwed up. Even though I know the reasons, I’m not able to change myself back. I don’t know if I’ve become very impatient or if people around me have become stupid. I feel a lot irritated by the things they do and the way they handle things with me. I don’t like it anymore. Has everything around me become so very monotonous that I’ve started to feel bored of them or those things? I keep trying to justify everything and everyone around me for retrospection. Even though I do find my mistakes, I feel that others are lot more responsible for my behavior. Now because of this I try to analyze things much more and try to look at them with an unbiased opinion, still I find I’m a bit less at the wrong side. I don’t know if this all started because of me or them. Or may be they were the same and I was able to adjust previously and which I’m not able to do now because of my impatience and temper.
Relations are like a number of threads joined together and the two ends being held strongly by the two people sharing them. Now initially when the tug starts the threads are united and thus are very strong. Later, as time goes and the tug continues and the threads are being pulled more often, the threads in all become weak and at a certain level there comes a stress point and then the disaster starts. Now as the illness of the relation grows, you could easily observe that the threads start to break one by one. At this point of time, if the threads are not properly replaced ‘each at a time’, they tend to go worse and the bond might break at any time.
It’s actually time for me to do something and act upon and it’s just that I’m trying to find ways to do that. Anyway, for all you guys reading this post, I feel it is really important that you guys not only cling on to your threads tightly but also see that the other person too has a tight grip over them and never pull them tight, else you know what might happen!! Retrospection is something really great and helps you realize a lot of things, the more you learn to do that, the more it helps you if only you do it with an unbiased mind. Let me warn you that when you’re doing this so called retrospection, the sickest thing is that even though you thing you are unbiased, deep inside, there’s a devil which always takes your side, so be very careful about him and the rest would do just fine.
Showing posts with label philosophy. Show all posts
Showing posts with label philosophy. Show all posts
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Tuesday, 27 November 2007
Corporate Positive Attitude
I hope most of the people have guessed the content by the name itself. I've always been a critic and love being so. Now for people who do not know what is Corporate Positive Attitude, please pay attention so that you might be doing well in your job by developing this attitude. First of all, lemme explain you what is corporate positive attitude.
Basically according to the recruiters and managers, all the employees should have a really positive attitude and must be willing to take up any kind of "challenges". Now a fresh college passout would be so entusiastic looking for such requirements and is happy as he feels that he's got the will to face the challenges and the real positive attitude. But these guys are stupid enough not to realise the actual meaning for those sugar coated demands. They actually want you to do any kind of "challenging work"(if considered work) which most others have not preffered to do, but as you are new to the field you must and whould be doing it and accept all that with a smile and be very happy with the creativity. If only would these demands be more transperent, there wouldn't have been so many lives slogging in the IT firms and deep inside, feeling that even though they're seeming happy and fine with 5days of "work" and a 2 day weekend, they're not satisfied with their life and work. May be most of us think there's no other chance to improve our lives any better, i don't know about others, but i think the same.
According to the Corporate Norms I am a guy with loads and loads of negative attitude and not ready for any kind of challenges and a weak stupid guy and simply not fit for the so-called Corporate Life. But if i choose to quit this kind of life, they call me fool and a lunatic. If i continue, i feel the same about myself. There has always been a clash with the society and my thoughts. When i was younger than now, i used to feel that these unique thoughts of mine would help me bring a change in the society and do any better to the people, but like many, even i have realised that i've to go on with the flock and try not to be different. Many a time i am really happy that India is "Independent", if independence means what it is that we have now(Wish i really was). May be i would try it one day, out of frustration or enthusiasm. I'm not sure. Let's see.
Basically according to the recruiters and managers, all the employees should have a really positive attitude and must be willing to take up any kind of "challenges". Now a fresh college passout would be so entusiastic looking for such requirements and is happy as he feels that he's got the will to face the challenges and the real positive attitude. But these guys are stupid enough not to realise the actual meaning for those sugar coated demands. They actually want you to do any kind of "challenging work"(if considered work) which most others have not preffered to do, but as you are new to the field you must and whould be doing it and accept all that with a smile and be very happy with the creativity. If only would these demands be more transperent, there wouldn't have been so many lives slogging in the IT firms and deep inside, feeling that even though they're seeming happy and fine with 5days of "work" and a 2 day weekend, they're not satisfied with their life and work. May be most of us think there's no other chance to improve our lives any better, i don't know about others, but i think the same.
According to the Corporate Norms I am a guy with loads and loads of negative attitude and not ready for any kind of challenges and a weak stupid guy and simply not fit for the so-called Corporate Life. But if i choose to quit this kind of life, they call me fool and a lunatic. If i continue, i feel the same about myself. There has always been a clash with the society and my thoughts. When i was younger than now, i used to feel that these unique thoughts of mine would help me bring a change in the society and do any better to the people, but like many, even i have realised that i've to go on with the flock and try not to be different. Many a time i am really happy that India is "Independent", if independence means what it is that we have now(Wish i really was). May be i would try it one day, out of frustration or enthusiasm. I'm not sure. Let's see.
Monday, 22 October 2007
How much do you want?
Greed. It is something which keeps the world going. I dont know why i keep writing this kind of stuff, but i enjoy writing it. May be, i am letting out my feelings and pain in this way by writing on these topics. Or may be i am atleast trying to. I always feel that i am missing something in my life and if i would have fulfilled that one wish, i might be satisfied. Human instinct you see. Either i get that or i dont. If i dont, then i have some other wish that i want it to be fulfilled. And if by chance my wish is satisfied, then there's an other wish waiting in the queue to be fulfilled and the progression never ends.
Why is it so that we are in need of something which we dont have, why aren't we satisfied with what we have? Many a time i feel, its probably good to an extent to be greedy, may be because, what we have today is because of that need for something which we had sometime back. But the problem with us is that we're never satisfied after a certain extent and as i said the chain never ends.
I always wonder why people are never satisfied with what they have(includes me too). We always need something more than what we have and that need for that something never ends and always there's a new something. Life's like that, it makes you do the worst of the things that you never even thought you might, at some point of time in your life, ever do. But all of us are compelled to lead our lives that way. No one has a solution. We never know where it all started. At the end of the day, all we could do is to blame, blame the goddam society for making a dork out of us. And then curse ourselves for knocking ourselves into the hovel. We want to get back, we would feel like leading a pure life. But by then, we drag ourselves so deep into it, that we cant turn back or we're too old to get back. There you are struck with your cruelself, fighting with your conscience and there's no win or loose cuz u already lost.
I feel i am insane to think of all this,but cant keep myself out of it. Most of us aware of these problems and situations and we know that there's no solution and we should keep up the pace. That's life and there's no end to how much we want!!!!!
Why is it so that we are in need of something which we dont have, why aren't we satisfied with what we have? Many a time i feel, its probably good to an extent to be greedy, may be because, what we have today is because of that need for something which we had sometime back. But the problem with us is that we're never satisfied after a certain extent and as i said the chain never ends.
I always wonder why people are never satisfied with what they have(includes me too). We always need something more than what we have and that need for that something never ends and always there's a new something. Life's like that, it makes you do the worst of the things that you never even thought you might, at some point of time in your life, ever do. But all of us are compelled to lead our lives that way. No one has a solution. We never know where it all started. At the end of the day, all we could do is to blame, blame the goddam society for making a dork out of us. And then curse ourselves for knocking ourselves into the hovel. We want to get back, we would feel like leading a pure life. But by then, we drag ourselves so deep into it, that we cant turn back or we're too old to get back. There you are struck with your cruelself, fighting with your conscience and there's no win or loose cuz u already lost.
I feel i am insane to think of all this,but cant keep myself out of it. Most of us aware of these problems and situations and we know that there's no solution and we should keep up the pace. That's life and there's no end to how much we want!!!!!
Thursday, 18 October 2007
My Dreams, My Work...... And Now - I Suck!!!
Zindagi is tarah badlegi, socha na tha,
Bas khushiyon ke yaad reh gaye hai ab.
Kya suhaane din the woh, Jo guzar gaye,
Ab kabhi na lautenge us jannat mein.
Ab toh bas yehi hai zindagi hamaari,
Woh din toh shayari mein badal gaye.
Kuch bhi nahi raha ab zindagi mein,
Jo kar sake hum apni marzi se.
Errrrr........... Hope tht was not real bad. Its been ages since i stopped writing poetry kinda stuff. It was during my school days that i used to write poetry. Then, stopped cuz of some reasons. Dunno felt like letting one out after so many years. I know it was not as good as i wanted it to be, but its ok cuz its been a long time. And moreover, the place i am in, has moved most of my talent out of my head. No regrets.
Its been a month that i am in this place (dream destination for most Indians) and i dont feel the life. I am nothing but a puppet. I am just an other tool or so called resource who is doing something which, may be, i didn't fantasize anything of this sort during my college days. I thought i would be working on something very much exciting and i would be creating some wonders, fascinations you see. But now i am in this so called dream place, trying to do something which, may be, i never thought i would do. All my dreams and fantasies have just washed out.
When I was in my training, I thought that we were being stressed up to this extent cuz there might be a lot of it to handle in the future. Yes this is a real stress, cuz you should be stable enough to handle the stress of your dreams being run into scum. You must be strong enough to face the truth. That's what you are and that's what happens when you are into a firm which is powered by intellect and driven by values. I still remember each and every moment of the day i got placed in this great institution. OMG!! I was so happy, no bounds for my excitement. I felt i've conqered the world. Even though i was aware that there are thousands in the firm, the feeling of achieving this could be compared to nothin. I am still wondering how innocent or may be stupid i was. What good am i?
Bas khushiyon ke yaad reh gaye hai ab.
Kya suhaane din the woh, Jo guzar gaye,
Ab kabhi na lautenge us jannat mein.
Ab toh bas yehi hai zindagi hamaari,
Woh din toh shayari mein badal gaye.
Kuch bhi nahi raha ab zindagi mein,
Jo kar sake hum apni marzi se.
Errrrr........... Hope tht was not real bad. Its been ages since i stopped writing poetry kinda stuff. It was during my school days that i used to write poetry. Then, stopped cuz of some reasons. Dunno felt like letting one out after so many years. I know it was not as good as i wanted it to be, but its ok cuz its been a long time. And moreover, the place i am in, has moved most of my talent out of my head. No regrets.
Its been a month that i am in this place (dream destination for most Indians) and i dont feel the life. I am nothing but a puppet. I am just an other tool or so called resource who is doing something which, may be, i didn't fantasize anything of this sort during my college days. I thought i would be working on something very much exciting and i would be creating some wonders, fascinations you see. But now i am in this so called dream place, trying to do something which, may be, i never thought i would do. All my dreams and fantasies have just washed out.
When I was in my training, I thought that we were being stressed up to this extent cuz there might be a lot of it to handle in the future. Yes this is a real stress, cuz you should be stable enough to handle the stress of your dreams being run into scum. You must be strong enough to face the truth. That's what you are and that's what happens when you are into a firm which is powered by intellect and driven by values. I still remember each and every moment of the day i got placed in this great institution. OMG!! I was so happy, no bounds for my excitement. I felt i've conqered the world. Even though i was aware that there are thousands in the firm, the feeling of achieving this could be compared to nothin. I am still wondering how innocent or may be stupid i was. What good am i?
Sunday, 13 May 2007
Philosophy of Life
There are times when we feel lonely, even though we have many people around us. Many a time, in the night, when I sit on the top of my house, all alone, gazing at the sky, I feel there’s nothing in the world that belongs to me. Nothin. Not even myself. Nothing in the world belongs to us. Its jus for the sake of the outer world we live. Are we living our lives, the way we want to be? Are we satisfied with our regular life? Was there any day, that we were satisfied totally with our living, without any regrets, without any compromises, without being unhappy? Then what in the world are we proud of?
There are lot many questions pondering my mind, why is this life like this? Few people say, it jus depends on the way we accept life and few say we must not think life in such way and should be optimistic. But, does concealing the truth, lets the facts drown? Does being optimistic mean drifting the truth and run towards the outward success of life? Doesn’t your inner self keep reminding you about the things that you lost in life? The moments you couldn’t spend with your best friend, cuz of some work at the office, the first b’day party of your kid you cudn’t attend, the thoughts you couldn’t share with your spouse cuz of hectic work. Could these losses be recuperated? Few of them jus come once in a life time, but we fail to be a part of them. Do we call it success? Does it mean we’re winning? What are we winning against?
Whenever I see, a dog fondling its pup, all day long, the immense pleasure involved in being with the baby, could never match to anything in the world. The freedom they’ve got, the love they share. Many a time, I wish I were a dog. Man is said to be the wisest ever living creature. But is this wisdom what we call? Does this sapience make any sense? All the time, we’re involved in gainin the so called “Success”, which actually is nothing but an Illusion, a dire fascination. After gaining all this success, what are we going to do? Pack it n carry it while we’re being cremated.
Even after all these thoughts I have in my mind, I still realize that even I am a part of this world and I should live according to its norms. The world where there is no truth at all. And everyone of us are a part of it and even though we don’t want to be the way we are, we ought to live it the way we are and that is the philosophy of life and we have no other choice except for living the way we are. If we try to be different, we’re considered as lunatics and imbecile. But deep in our hearts, we’re actually jealous of the person who is living his life the way he wants to. But, as a “HUMAN BEING”, we cannot accept other’s success, the real success. But a happy man, wud never care of other’s perception towards his life. But, we rarely find such people, almost seldom. Atleast, I am not as fortunate as them.
There are lot many questions pondering my mind, why is this life like this? Few people say, it jus depends on the way we accept life and few say we must not think life in such way and should be optimistic. But, does concealing the truth, lets the facts drown? Does being optimistic mean drifting the truth and run towards the outward success of life? Doesn’t your inner self keep reminding you about the things that you lost in life? The moments you couldn’t spend with your best friend, cuz of some work at the office, the first b’day party of your kid you cudn’t attend, the thoughts you couldn’t share with your spouse cuz of hectic work. Could these losses be recuperated? Few of them jus come once in a life time, but we fail to be a part of them. Do we call it success? Does it mean we’re winning? What are we winning against?
Whenever I see, a dog fondling its pup, all day long, the immense pleasure involved in being with the baby, could never match to anything in the world. The freedom they’ve got, the love they share. Many a time, I wish I were a dog. Man is said to be the wisest ever living creature. But is this wisdom what we call? Does this sapience make any sense? All the time, we’re involved in gainin the so called “Success”, which actually is nothing but an Illusion, a dire fascination. After gaining all this success, what are we going to do? Pack it n carry it while we’re being cremated.
Even after all these thoughts I have in my mind, I still realize that even I am a part of this world and I should live according to its norms. The world where there is no truth at all. And everyone of us are a part of it and even though we don’t want to be the way we are, we ought to live it the way we are and that is the philosophy of life and we have no other choice except for living the way we are. If we try to be different, we’re considered as lunatics and imbecile. But deep in our hearts, we’re actually jealous of the person who is living his life the way he wants to. But, as a “HUMAN BEING”, we cannot accept other’s success, the real success. But a happy man, wud never care of other’s perception towards his life. But, we rarely find such people, almost seldom. Atleast, I am not as fortunate as them.
Wednesday, 2 May 2007
Pastor's Ass
Recently, I’ve come across this mail and thought it is worth sharing here. It is jus a forward mail but the humor as well as the moral of the story allured me and made me post it here.
Here goes the story:
The pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won. The pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered it in the race again, and it won again. The local paper read: PASTOR'S ASS OUT FRONT
Here goes the story:
The pastor entered his donkey in a race and it won. The pastor was so pleased with the donkey that he entered it in the race again, and it won again. The local paper read: PASTOR'S ASS OUT FRONT
The Bishop was so upset with this kind of publicity that he ordered the pastor not to enter the donkey in another race.
The next day, the local paper headline read: BISHOP SCRATCHES PASTOR'S ASS.
This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the pastor to get rid of the donkey. The pastor decided to give it to a nun in a nearby convent.
The local paper, hearing of the news, posted the following headline the next day: NUN HAS BEST ASS IN TOWN.
The bishop fainted. He informed the nun that she would have to get rid of the donkey, so she sold it to a farmer for $10.
The next day the paper read: NUN SELLS ASS FOR $10
This was too much for the bishop, so he ordered the nun to buy back the donkey and lead it to the plains where it could run wild.
The next day the headlines read: NUN ANNOUNCES HER ASS IS WILD AND FREE
The bishop was buried the next day.
The moral of the story is...being concerned about public opinion can bring you much grief and misery...and even shorten your life. So be yourself and enjoy life...
Stop worrying about everyone else's ass and you'll be a lot happier and live longer!
This story really made me think, as it is not only a bit humorous but actually thought-provoking. Life is much happier when we don’t get involved into other’s business without their endorsement. There may be things which would need our concern. But we must limit ourselves to the locus of the concern and should not try to get more inquisitive.
Tuesday, 1 May 2007
What is Love!!
LOVE!!!! This is the one most dangerous word that can cause Ecstasy as well as Havoc and occasionally both at a time. It’s the one word that can bamboozle anyone in this world. For a long time people have been using this word for many purposes. Lust, Passion, Emotion, Boodle, Bullshit!!! And the list goes on… Damn!!! What the heck is Love?? Many people say it’s an emotion, some say, it’s a feeling and other says it’s the trust. Is it really true?? Does Love exist? Do people really Love each other?? May be. They are true. Let’s jus trust them for a moment. If they really are in love, why do they split? And why do they abuse and curse each other once they are separated? Is it what they call Love? Does Love mean to shower all that you could when you are with each other and inflict the latter’s life once the relation crumples? WTF?? What about all the promises they made, to stay with each other for the rest of the life, and stand by each other, no matter what. The “Love” that they had for each other!! The feelings, the emotions, the memories, the sweetest times, all the things that they shared, where do they all vanish? The gifts and letters that were exchanged, for which they were even ready to give their life!! Do they run into scum? Do they all evanesce at once. And without any adversity people start screwing each other and then the series of profanations go on. No regrets. All the Love is gone. Vengeance. The only thought that comes into mind. And for some others, its jus a part of life. They get into an other relation and then there’s an other “Love of my Life”. And thus the cycle goes on.
Don’t people ever realise the mistake they commit? Don’t they understand what they keep doing? Don’t their inner self object them?
Its jus the impact of infatuation that draws their attention onto the other person. A small remarkable resemblance to their dream boy/girl that they feel. That’s all. They keep fantasizing that the other person is made for them. And then.they utter to themselves. “OMG!!! This is the Guy! Yes! Its Him!! Yes Him that I’ve been waiting all my life. And yeah.. I finally met him!!” Real damn Bullshit!! And within a moment they fall in “Love”. This is what is Love. F**K!! And then the never ending drama and their sequels go on and on. But don’t they ever feel like thinking for a moment. Jus for a single moment!! What the hell am I doin? Where am I running myself into?
Its jus for few moments of pleasure and a crave for emotional support, that people run into this hogwash. Yes!! Love means sefishness. Its jus that you want your desires to be fulfilled and hence you are in Love. The need may be anything. As I’ve mentioned.. Lust, Emotional support or wateva.. Everything’s plastic. Noting exists in real. Yeah Nothing.
I’ve been speaking all this. But am I flawless?? F**k No!! Even I run myself into this deep Shit. Even though never wanted to. And yeah!! I did blame her. For all that shez done to me. I hate her. Yes I do. But, deep in my heart. I feel. Yes!! I feel all this. All that I spoke. But then, Even I am a normal human being. And I do realize the meaning of “To Err is Human...”.
Don’t people ever realise the mistake they commit? Don’t they understand what they keep doing? Don’t their inner self object them?
Its jus the impact of infatuation that draws their attention onto the other person. A small remarkable resemblance to their dream boy/girl that they feel. That’s all. They keep fantasizing that the other person is made for them. And then.they utter to themselves. “OMG!!! This is the Guy! Yes! Its Him!! Yes Him that I’ve been waiting all my life. And yeah.. I finally met him!!” Real damn Bullshit!! And within a moment they fall in “Love”. This is what is Love. F**K!! And then the never ending drama and their sequels go on and on. But don’t they ever feel like thinking for a moment. Jus for a single moment!! What the hell am I doin? Where am I running myself into?
Its jus for few moments of pleasure and a crave for emotional support, that people run into this hogwash. Yes!! Love means sefishness. Its jus that you want your desires to be fulfilled and hence you are in Love. The need may be anything. As I’ve mentioned.. Lust, Emotional support or wateva.. Everything’s plastic. Noting exists in real. Yeah Nothing.
I’ve been speaking all this. But am I flawless?? F**k No!! Even I run myself into this deep Shit. Even though never wanted to. And yeah!! I did blame her. For all that shez done to me. I hate her. Yes I do. But, deep in my heart. I feel. Yes!! I feel all this. All that I spoke. But then, Even I am a normal human being. And I do realize the meaning of “To Err is Human...”.
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