Relations

I always wonder why relations are so weird. There was a time when I used to feel that I’ve been good at maintaining them and have felt proud for the art. But now, since the time I started working, I feel I’m so lonely and disabled with most of my relations screwed up. Even though I know the reasons, I’m not able to change myself back. I don’t know if I’ve become very impatient or if people around me have become stupid. I feel a lot irritated by the things they do and the way they handle things with me. I don’t like it anymore. Has everything around me become so very monotonous that I’ve started to feel bored of them or those things? I keep trying to justify everything and everyone around me for retrospection. Even though I do find my mistakes, I feel that others are lot more responsible for my behavior. Now because of this I try to analyze things much more and try to look at them with an unbiased opinion, still I find I’m a bit less at the wrong side. I don’t know if this all started because of me or them. Or may be they were the same and I was able to adjust previously and which I’m not able to do now because of my impatience and temper.

Relations are like a number of threads joined together and the two ends being held strongly by the two people sharing them. Now initially when the tug starts the threads are united and thus are very strong. Later, as time goes and the tug continues and the threads are being pulled more often, the threads in all become weak and at a certain level there comes a stress point and then the disaster starts. Now as the illness of the relation grows, you could easily observe that the threads start to break one by one. At this point of time, if the threads are not properly replaced ‘each at a time’, they tend to go worse and the bond might break at any time.

It’s actually time for me to do something and act upon and it’s just that I’m trying to find ways to do that. Anyway, for all you guys reading this post, I feel it is really important that you guys not only cling on to your threads tightly but also see that the other person too has a tight grip over them and never pull them tight, else you know what might happen!! Retrospection is something really great and helps you realize a lot of things, the more you learn to do that, the more it helps you if only you do it with an unbiased mind. Let me warn you that when you’re doing this so called retrospection, the sickest thing is that even though you thing you are unbiased, deep inside, there’s a devil which always takes your side, so be very careful about him and the rest would do just fine.