My Dreams, My Work...... And Now - I Suck!!!

Zindagi is tarah badlegi, socha na tha,
Bas khushiyon ke yaad reh gaye hai ab.
Kya suhaane din the woh, Jo guzar gaye,
Ab kabhi na lautenge us jannat mein.

Ab toh bas yehi hai zindagi hamaari,
Woh din toh shayari mein badal gaye.
Kuch bhi nahi raha ab zindagi mein,
Jo kar sake hum apni marzi se.

Errrrr........... Hope tht was not real bad. Its been ages since i stopped writing poetry kinda stuff. It was during my school days that i used to write poetry. Then, stopped cuz of some reasons. Dunno felt like letting one out after so many years. I know it was not as good as i wanted it to be, but its ok cuz its been a long time. And moreover, the place i am in, has moved most of my talent out of my head. No regrets.

Its been a month that i am in this place (dream destination for most Indians) and i dont feel the life. I am nothing but a puppet. I am just an other tool or so called resource who is doing something which, may be, i didn't fantasize anything of this sort during my college days. I thought i would be working on something very much exciting and i would be creating some wonders, fascinations you see. But now i am in this so called dream place, trying to do something which, may be, i never thought i would do. All my dreams and fantasies have just washed out.


When I was in my training, I thought that we were being stressed up to this extent cuz there might be a lot of it to handle in the future. Yes this is a real stress, cuz you should be stable enough to handle the stress of your dreams being run into scum. You must be strong enough to face the truth. That's what you are and that's what happens when you are into a firm which is powered by intellect and driven by values. I still remember each and every moment of the day i got placed in this great institution. OMG!! I was so happy, no bounds for my excitement. I felt i've conqered the world. Even though i was aware that there are thousands in the firm, the feeling of achieving this could be compared to nothin. I am still wondering how innocent or may be stupid i was. What good am i?