How much do you want?

Greed. It is something which keeps the world going. I dont know why i keep writing this kind of stuff, but i enjoy writing it. May be, i am letting out my feelings and pain in this way by writing on these topics. Or may be i am atleast trying to. I always feel that i am missing something in my life and if i would have fulfilled that one wish, i might be satisfied. Human instinct you see. Either i get that or i dont. If i dont, then i have some other wish that i want it to be fulfilled. And if by chance my wish is satisfied, then there's an other wish waiting in the queue to be fulfilled and the progression never ends.

Why is it so that we are in need of something which we dont have, why aren't we satisfied with what we have? Many a time i feel, its probably good to an extent to be greedy, may be because, what we have today is because of that need for something which we had sometime back. But the problem with us is that we're never satisfied after a certain extent and as i said the chain never ends.

I always wonder why people are never satisfied with what they have(includes me too). We always need something more than what we have and that need for that something never ends and always there's a new something. Life's like that, it makes you do the worst of the things that you never even thought you might, at some point of time in your life, ever do. But all of us are compelled to lead our lives that way. No one has a solution. We never know where it all started. At the end of the day, all we could do is to blame, blame the goddam society for making a dork out of us. And then curse ourselves for knocking ourselves into the hovel. We want to get back, we would feel like leading a pure life. But by then, we drag ourselves so deep into it, that we cant turn back or we're too old to get back. There you are struck with your cruelself, fighting with your conscience and there's no win or loose cuz u already lost.

I feel i am insane to think of all this,but cant keep myself out of it. Most of us aware of these problems and situations and we know that there's no solution and we should keep up the pace. That's life and there's no end to how much we want!!!!!

My Dreams, My Work...... And Now - I Suck!!!

Zindagi is tarah badlegi, socha na tha,
Bas khushiyon ke yaad reh gaye hai ab.
Kya suhaane din the woh, Jo guzar gaye,
Ab kabhi na lautenge us jannat mein.

Ab toh bas yehi hai zindagi hamaari,
Woh din toh shayari mein badal gaye.
Kuch bhi nahi raha ab zindagi mein,
Jo kar sake hum apni marzi se.

Errrrr........... Hope tht was not real bad. Its been ages since i stopped writing poetry kinda stuff. It was during my school days that i used to write poetry. Then, stopped cuz of some reasons. Dunno felt like letting one out after so many years. I know it was not as good as i wanted it to be, but its ok cuz its been a long time. And moreover, the place i am in, has moved most of my talent out of my head. No regrets.

Its been a month that i am in this place (dream destination for most Indians) and i dont feel the life. I am nothing but a puppet. I am just an other tool or so called resource who is doing something which, may be, i didn't fantasize anything of this sort during my college days. I thought i would be working on something very much exciting and i would be creating some wonders, fascinations you see. But now i am in this so called dream place, trying to do something which, may be, i never thought i would do. All my dreams and fantasies have just washed out.


When I was in my training, I thought that we were being stressed up to this extent cuz there might be a lot of it to handle in the future. Yes this is a real stress, cuz you should be stable enough to handle the stress of your dreams being run into scum. You must be strong enough to face the truth. That's what you are and that's what happens when you are into a firm which is powered by intellect and driven by values. I still remember each and every moment of the day i got placed in this great institution. OMG!! I was so happy, no bounds for my excitement. I felt i've conqered the world. Even though i was aware that there are thousands in the firm, the feeling of achieving this could be compared to nothin. I am still wondering how innocent or may be stupid i was. What good am i?

Human Trafficking

Yesterday night, i was switching channels as usual, and came across this Documentary by M TV. It was called EXIT, based on human trafficking. The whole documentary brings out the facts how most of us might be involved in the business of Human trafficking. Even though we know the facts very well, but when you actually listen them from the people who are actually suffering, its more than pathetic. The documentary brings out the pain that we never even dare to think of, but there are acually people alive and facing them. How they were decieved and were made victims, and how their future and their lives crumbled into pieces within no time at such a young age. I really couldn't watch it, but was determined to because it is for us to act upon such brutality. For the first time i thanked the commercial ads which came in the middle of the flick.

I really dont understand how and where the humanity has gone. I feel that the word humanity has lost its meaning.What right do we have to sell or buy our fellow human beings? Does greed for money and hunger kill the human in us. The human race has lost its identity. The reason for which we call ourselves intelligent has no value now. We're no more intelligent, we're degraded animals and something much worser than animals would describe the human race better, because animals are never such cruel. where in the world has all this brutality come from? It is within us. Its because of our cheap needs that our fellow beings are suffering. What right do we have to snatch their life for our selfishenss?

Each of us is responsible for all that is happening in this world. We have become more than selfish that we dont care of what is happening to others. All we are concerned about is ourselves and our families. How many times did we react to any situation which we felt it needs us. Each of us might have come across such situations. We must have come across ditched children across the streets or girls found in miserable state on the roads. How many times did we react to such situations? Did we ever care to give them a second look? We always notice the Sale or a Discount Offer signboard, but never a miserable kid, who might be a victim of human trafficking. We dont even have time to ask ourselves the question that how or in what way we are being useful to the society, to the country and to the world and to the humanity.

Most of us might have thoughts about all these, but we never come to take action when we face the situation. It is because, we feel we have much important things to do, than to bang our heads on such issues. But, just think, how our simple decision putting our thoughts to action might help the humanity and sustain the meaning of it. Its not very difficult do do, but its just that we need to put our thoughts to action. And it just needs a decision which can change the life of a child or someone. People reading this post might be in thinking of what i might have done as i am saying all this. I admit that i never did something much that i could talk about it over here. But yes, i've done all that i could when i come across such situations. I urge each one of you to take an initiative and feel responsible and act to such situations and help in forming a better India.

Jai Hind!!!